Seriously, you've been a huge chunk of the reason I even keep writing.
But, I'm so sorry. I can't say who I am. Because basically... I am a lie.
Yep. This entire blog is basically bull crap, but I meant every word.
This blog was never meant to be about truth, it was supposed to be a writing project for myself and a different side of me. I wanted to see if I could write from a whole different perspective than I'm used to and, honestly, I have loved it.
These words that come from Benji Shell are honest and some of them are straight quotes. They're just not from me.
I lied to Nelson about who I am and I lied to a lot of people at first actually but the truth is is that I am not Benji at all. He's a mixture of two things but mostly Benji is in love with me.
I sound crazy... I'm just incapable of being fully honest with you because we're friends in real life and all of my different selves worship you. I don't want you to hate me when you find out who I am.
"The man who is behind it is one of the most honest men I've had the pleasure of reading about."
And he is. A huge part (the best part) of Benji is one of the most real, most honest people that I believe has ever walked this earth, but I am not him.
I'm so sorry if I've been a huge disappointment to you. I never thought Benji would go anywhere and because of you, I feel like he has.
Thank you so much for everything, Sarah.
I'm not sure that I can continue Benji after this but we'll see.
Thanks again,
Benji Shell
